This season has arrived. I know. And i've heard that phrase for a countless times already. The scent of the air has changed as well. I really don't understand how i feel but somehow, this kind of scent brings back those innocent memories i had on those days...

            Happily waking up in the morning... wearing those new shirt, pants and pair of shoes. Heading to the school with a wrapped present in hand. Smiling to everyone and enjoying the time with joys and laughters. Ahhh... those are such wonderful years of innocence. LOL! It feels really good whenever i remember something like that. Well, yeah... i guess i can't really go back to those times anymore... well, ofcourse this is reality. haha!

            Last night, was actually our christmas party. The first (and surely) the last christmas party that i could have enjoyed in my very first employer. But the thing is, i never went to it...

             Yah! That's true... and as of this moment... this very moment that i'll be on my bed again  to sleep, i do regret that i didn't go. Grrrrrr. You know what? I'm gonna be telling you why...

            First, i really don't know why but i felt like not going... Second, I decided not to go because we're gonna be off-setting it on our day-off... and honestly speaking, that second reason technically explains it all.

            Though i enjoyed the night with my friends... i regreted the fact that "hey! it's your very first employer... a christmas party... a once in a lifetime experience that i'll surely not gonna experience again...

            Nyaks! >_< i'm off to bed. lol. gonna be sleeping now. still have work tonight. lol... mownight ^_^

            This season has arrived. I know. And i've heard that phrase for a countless times already. The scent of the air has changed as well. I really don't understand how i feel but somehow, this kind of scent brings back those innocent memories i had on those days...

            Happily waking up in the morning... wearing those new shirt, pants and pair of shoes. Heading to the school with a wrapped present in hand. Smiling to everyone and enjoying the time with joys and laughters. Ahhh... those are such wonderful years of innocence. LOL! It feels really good whenever i remember something like that. Well, yeah... i guess i can't really go back to those times anymore... well, ofcourse this is reality. haha!

            Last night, was actually our christmas party. The first (and surely) the last christmas party that i could have enjoyed in my very first employer. But the thing is, i never went to it...

             Yah! That's true... and as of this moment... this very moment that i'll be on my bed again  to sleep, i do regret that i didn't go. Grrrrrr. You know what? I'm gonna be telling you why...

            First, i really don't know why but i felt like not going... Second, I decided not to go because we're gonna be off-setting it on our day-off... and honestly speaking, that second reason technically explains it all.

            Though i enjoyed the night with my friends... i regreted the fact that "hey! it's your very first employer... a christmas party... a once in a lifetime experience that i'll surely not gonna experience again...

            Nyaks! >_< i'm off to bed. lol. gonna be sleeping now. still have work tonight. lol... mownight ^_^

            "Nothing has really changed between us right?"

            That was what i asked myself while i was laughing so hard that moment. I couldn't believe that until now, its as if nothing has really ended with us. Those beautiful years that i had with them haven't really ended yet. Yes, i'm so sure with these words that i say. This morning, when i got home from a very tiring day at work, i decided to go with them... I mean, hey... this'll be the very first time that we'll go out together. And so, there i was... laughing with their silly jokes and stories.

            We went to an event and there, we hanged out and enjoyed our time together,. I really enjoyed the day despite the weakness and sleepiness that i was feeling that time.

            Eventually, i was able to stand up and be energetic because of them.

            On our way home, while riding that bus, i really felt something special. The bond that we have hasn't ended yet... I'm sure with it... and as long as we laugh and cry together, these beautiful days will never end...

            Yay! I even had my first ever Logo-Making contest experience! ahahah.

            This morning, as i went outside our house and looked up at that beautiful, ever-changing sky, i felt that the wind has really changed so much. Trees are swaying with it gentleness... vividly blowing a change of season...

            Winter has arrived, as i've just expected.

            I could still remember those beautiful and innocent winter days... I found myself at the middle of a buzzling crowd of friends... tears and laughters are everywhere. Those beautiful days have been truly bitter-sweet parts of my life.

            As the season changes, i felt like i'll change as well.

            I don't know why but that's how i feel right now.

            Again, i lived in the nights and fall asound during the days. This state of life i'm havin' right now is somewhat new... and so, i find myself struggling again. But no matter how, i really wanted to be strong. I really wanted to finish everything that i've started. I've really wanted to go to that place that i'm dreamin' of for a couple of moments.

            December has arrived. A new month to face. A new battle to fight with. A new story to be told, and a new memory to have... Those past Decembers i had were just beautiful, and i hope... and prayin' that this one will be the best so far.

            Here i am now, fighting to be strong once again...

Merry Christmas ^_^