Simula palang ng Month, napasabak na akoh sa mga bagay bagay... Thank God~ nakalagpas ako sa forst part ng midterm sa Taxation kaninang umaga... But somehow, huhuhu! Bagsak ako sa quiz namin sa Philosophy. 2 times... and i am very unsatisfied because of it...

            As usual, it's friday. That's why we took the chance na makapanood ng DVD sa room ng CAC. haha... Hana-Kimi~ Hana-Kimi~... hihihih! And kaninang katext ko si bez, nakoh,. nag-tema nanaman ang idol nyo...

            Pero i experienced so unusual kanina... Arkhaye was crying... and i really don't know the reason. Probably, because i feel like im not the type who is good in comforting friends, hindi ko na inalam pa ang reasons. When i got home after the long school day, naghilamos nanaman at umariba papunta kanila Anabelle. haaayz!    Fudtrip ang ginawa...  

            And while eating...

            Nakita ko nanaman si Jordan. Sa dinami-dami ng pwedeng makita. And hindi lang yon... There's something behind his looks. Parang ~ hmmmm... hindi ko ma-explain. Pero as Annabel Said "parang gusto ka nyang lapitan pero hindi"... Kapansin-pansin den ang girl na kasama nya kanina... First time kong nakita yun. Haaayz! May nabiktima  nanaman sa alindog nya! hahahah... Pero, by the way, tapoz na ako s kanya... I just want to share that experience... na after many days, nagkita ulet kame... pero hindi man lang nag-usap...sabi ko nga "Haha! Baka nahuhumaling nanaman sya saken!" hihihi... pero haay nakoh... basta! Bahala nah... Masaya na ko sa Life... weeeh!

           Weeeeh! Time had gone very fast. It seems like it was just yesterday when i welcomed the year, watched fireworks on our rooftop and exchanged gifts with my cousin. Haha!. January has been a nice month to me,.  I did not met someone new But i did staying at my friends' sides during those days when they need me.

           The start of the year was a total exciting moment. And we can only taste it once in those 345 days... (tama ba?)... Ofcourse, we should not always expect good and beautiful things but we should also be prepared from storms that are comming to each and everyone of us...

            I wanted to be responsible. And god gave me responsibilities to prove that i can handle those situations. And somehow, with the help of many people who support me, i became able to surpass all of these. But that way, it doesn't meant that i also became responsible. I was just trained to be prepared on much complicated and bigger responsibilities in the future.

            This January, i recieved many news - some good, and some, Bad. But somehow they've been balanced. 

             From a news about the deafness of Ayumi Hamasaki and proving that she'll still be the Queen of JPOP by her courage; to the release of Utada's Heart Station single/album and Namie's Triple A single... Undergoing midterm examinations, "Success story of an Entrepreneur", Chapter 1 ng thesis (Shet!~ di ko makakalimutan yon), Hana Yori Dango sa Pilipinas; and the tragedy happened to my Bez =(.

            First month of the year palang naman yan... and i still have more 11 months to taste another "Flavor of Life". I had a bunch of responsibilities and i became able to handle them all with all my strength and the love of everyone around me.

            Ciao January!.... Hello February!

            Weeeeeh! Feb nah and exactly 13 days to go before Valentines... And as usual, i expect to be alone at that day. Pero malay naten,.. hihi...

            Yesterday was a very long and tiring day for me and my classmates. Super! As in, hindi ako makapaniwalang mangyayari sa amin ang nangyari tulad ng kahapon. We had difficulties, but we worked together. Pag hindi alam ng isa, itatanong sa isa. Its very good to know that when someone needs help, there is someone who's ready to give. And i want it that way...

            While doing my Assignments, i am still thinking of him. Kung OK lang kaya sya? ANo kayang ginagawa nya? Inspite of all the things that we are doing yesterday, still, i want to stay at my bestfriend's side. Because i understand his situation and i also felt that kind of pain several years ago.

            Academically, i couldn't say that i am prodictive. Minsan, Parang nawawalan na ako ng gana... Because it's very very difficult. One of my classmates even cried yesterday because she couldn't think of anything to make her Assignment better. And when i got home, i cried too...

             Natatawa nalang ako dahil first time kong umiyak dahil sa isang Assignment lang. pero hindi lang un.... I feel really concerned  about that special person in my life right now. If only makakapunta lang ako sa kanila... Hndi ko naman kase alam bahay nila. Huhuhu....

            I am wishing to be strong... Regardless sa mga assignments na itoh; sa mga problems na kinakaharap ko ngayon; and sa mga bagay na kakaharapin ko pa sa Future...

            And i am wishing most for him... I want him to be strong... I want him to know that he's not alone, and all of the problems that he is enduring right now will soon be ended. I'm here for him... And i am willing to do everything just to make him happy. That's how i  think...

            It's been awhile,... that i've been really concerned about a special person. Because after that storm, all i thought is Myself... But now...

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Moments
-ayu-

Your heart began to be scorched,
and there was a smell of it
It was the end of your dream,
and the start of everything
What you adored looked beautiful to you
It became even brighter because you couldn't reach it

The broken pieces of your dream
Pierce my heart
Leaving the pain
That I should never forget
If my life is transient like a flower
I'll be in full bloom by your side
And after watching your smile
I'll fall alone, quietly

How was the scenery you saw
When you were pushed into an abyss of despair
Your naked heart is wandering
Having nowhere to go
And is setting sharp thorns around
For fear of being touched

If I could flutter like a bird, I would fly to you
And offer my wings, To your wounded back
If my life is transient like a flower, I'll be in full bloom by your side
And after watching your smile, I'll fall alone quietly

If I could flow like the wind, I would reach you
If I could shine like a moon, I would keep shining on you
I'll be anything,If it can stop you from
being seized with fear
.........

          First of all, i would like to give you my warmest condolences... I, myself, was shocked to the news that turned me uneasy and sad after the next few moments awhile ago. Mahirap paniwalaan pero parang napakadaling lumipas ng oras. You're mom has been a nice mother to you for bringing you up into a person of what who you are today. And I'm sure that somehow, she's proud of you.

           As i've said a few steps backwards along time, "Life is a mixture of sadness and Hapiness". There are times that we are overflowing with joy and there are times that we are suffering tremendously in pain as well. But during these times, please... don't forget that you are not alone.

           You've been a very nice guy and a friend to me. And i really felt your sincerity not just inside my heart but also deep into my BONES. It's unbelievably true...  that i fell in love with your humour and your company...

            Promize.

            That's why Bez, if  i can only hold your arms right now and hug you as tight as i can, i would... I really  would...  I want to keep away all of the worries and pain that you're enduring right now because I want to protect you and keep you safe within me.

            If you'll be happy, let me smile with you... and if you're sad and couldn't keep any longer to yourself, you can cry infront of me...Let me cry with you. And after that,  I'll be your handkerchief...  To dry up all your tears and make you feel well once again...

            I'm always here at your side, no matter how far we are right now. I'm with you...Bez, there's always a blue sky behind those dark clouds.. and there's always a light after the night's darkness ended. .