"Because i can hear everyone's voice, i become able to be at this place... Because i am wrapped by everyone's love, my voice can always reach them..."

            This is certainly UNBELIEVABLE. Right now, i can say that This is the One. I am really sure that it is the NEXT LEVEL. What is it? Until where have i reached? Frankly enough, i graduated 3 days ago. It was such an expectacular event for me. Both laughters and pain come side by side and i'm not sure of how am i gonna express what i feel right now. The pain that i've been carrying for a very long time seems to have an ending. At the end of the ceremony, when we started singing our College's hymn, i felt a tear on my eye. I felt a pain on my chest and my heart wanted to break apart... as if i can die at the moment slowly. As if i'll depart from a place where i grew up and learned so many things... As if, a special part of my life will now be detached from my whole entity...

            I'm sure that everyone will be at this place as well... if not, in place like this as well. That's true. People will always come and go to our lives. They'll leave countless memories to us. They will teach us so many lessons that we'll carry on our lives for a very long time. As of now... i feel so blessed because i had these funny yet good people on my side...

            Now, let me thank everyone who have been a part of my life these many years of learning... and living beside them as well...

            To my friends... "You know who you are..."

            To my co-DJ's...

            To all of my teachers... all of what i have right now will be nothing without your help and guidance. You're the ones who shaped us, who taught us so many things and built our confidence among ourselves. Thank you so much for that!

             To my SAMANPAC family... it really believe that you guys are actually my second family. You've been a huge part of my life these past years. Thank you so much for literarily everything! These long seven years of being with you didn't seem so long at all. When everything came to an end, i felt like i want to spend more time with you guys. i don't know why but i think its all natural. And It's soooooooo hard for me to say goodbye right now.  I'm gonna miss you sooooo much! Our rehearsals, our stage plays... everything! I just hope that when i come back again... i'll have a family like you to lean on... OK? Ok? LOL!

            And lastly, to my dearest classmates...

            the "ABENG_Trese"...

            CHEERS! It had been a wonderful "four years" of learning with all of you guys. We did it! And i know that we'll surely aim for "The More" and the "Better". Sorry if i couldn't show what i really feel during our graduation... it's just, i don't feel like crying infront of the crowd. Honestly speaking, when i got home, i ran straight to our bathroom and there, i bursted into tears. hahaha. I'll miss you so much and i will never ever forget every single moment i had with all of you. Play, Eireen, Ghick, Moshi, Jheck, Mayette, Xuti, Totey, Arkhaye, April, Micah and Jobelle... Thank you so much for everything... for the laughs and tears that you've shared with me; for all the memories that you gave me; and for the FRIENDSHIP that we've shared. I'm happy for all of you... Goodluck on this NEXT STAGE of life that we'll be facing in the coming days... I'm looking forward for our Get Together. hahaha!

            It's true... that I can never look back nor be at that place anymore. My world is full of people whom i'll certainly miss. But i know that i should understand the things that are happening to me right now. I should accept that fact... ~That this is the now and this is the most important stage more than anything else.

            And now... as i face this brand new journey, let me not bid farewell to all of you. Instead, let me leave this "THANK YOU" right here at this moment.

            Be strong...

            Never give up....

            Treasure time and all your friends...

            I'll always be here at this place under this wide NEW sky. 

            These familiar roads... these precious people... this lovely place... yes. They seemed so different today. As i walk, i can clearly see that faraway sky. Everything changes on this land and yet, that sky kept on smiling at me. The warm wind blows and softly touches my skin... i felt this kind of memory for so many years but at this moment, i seemed so different as well.

            What is happening? i thought.

            I walked farther. The more i get closer, the more painful i felt on my chest. When i got on the place i've aimed for, i found myself crying. I found myself taughtless of what i should say or show. My knees and hands were shaking.

            Sadness...

            Happiness...

            I really don't know which should i pick.

            Hours from now, i'll be leaving this phase... I'm headed for the next stage and yet, i'm not sure if i'm ready for it.

            Those beautiful yellow flowers being blown by the wind seem so sad that time. I can feel it... i can hear the wind... i can see the clouds drifting above that mountain... this place... this place where i found myself wandering for a countless times seems to peaceful that time...

            This place is SPECIAL and i'll never forget whatever i had at this piece of land. My last day.. being what i am today...

            Oh my God. What a day! hehe. Just got home from an adventure i'd never thought to be so happy and exciting. Two weeks ago, i had my very first job interview. I could still remember how ignorant i was during those moments when i was applying for a job in a company. And today, me and my classmates went to a company to apply as well and honestly speaking, the day went really well. The kikays had a very exciting day... too bad... we're not complete this time as our head chairman was at home and sick. (T_T).

             I had more confidence this time. I faced what i am being afraid of this time. I started thinking of what i really need to say and do this time. That's why as a result, i think... i made it... even if there's no assurance... i made it to the NEXT LEVEL. hahaha.

            F.Y.I.

            I've been telling 'bout this "NEXT LEVEL" for so many times these days... Know why? Hey! It's Ayu's latest album... so far.... i really really love the tittle track. and it gives me this strange yet fresh and uplifting athmosphere whenever i listen to it. LOL....

            God... I'm really hoping to be hired this time... LOL.

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the lounge... or... something? LOL

PEACE! Hahaha... while waiting for my classmates.

To the next stage, which begins to move,
we continue to walk together.

This only road never ends,
we continue to illuminate it.

How will we take
this fresh start that,
once again, presents itself here?

While looking at the sky, my face was lit by a gentle smile
I heard "Don't be afraid, everything is fine"
While looking at the sky, a small tear flowed
Even the scars left by the past seem sweet today.

The sign tells us that a vibrant future, makes our looks meet each other.

Our hearts are beating so strong,
What will they choose and represent?
What is the map that will take shape?

If you feel the wind, grip our hands strongly
Because we don't need many words to understand each other
If you feel the wind, begin to walk with conviction
and with the same speed we will see the same landscape

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Ayumi Hamasaki
new album
"NEXT LEVEL"
-03.25.09-