As of now, my throat still bugs me. It has been hurting me for almost 3 days until now, and at this very moment, i can still feel some sort of fever within my body. However, this physical condition i have right now didn't hinder my 2 and a half days of rest. LOL! Yeah... from Saturday afternoon after my shift until this afternoon, i was going out with my relatives and former classmates. I guess, this 2 and a half day off seemed to be so long afterall. I've rested and relaxed myself as well.

           Last saturday, we were supposed to go out with my former classmates however due to some personal "excuses" (i shouldn't say "reasons"), they were not able to come... so it was just the 4 of us who are working at iQor who went out and spend some time with each other... LOL! I got the very last call on the floor that day... perhaps according to my co-worker, the reason why i got this ailment right now is due to "over fatigue" or something like that... But despite what i am feeling then, i decided to go.. When i got home, i slept early... Then the next day came...

           Sunday was full of relaxations... Woke up around 1:30am then surfed the net, watched some japanese tV series and did everything... i was still sick... but i managed to enjoy it... as usual, i washed the laundry... and fed our pet in the morning... When lunch time came, i decided to go to a nearby city because i called my cousin that i want to meet them and spend some time with them...

            I arrived earlier than them. So while waiting, i spent the time reading and reading and reading some of the books on that Bookstore... i even bought one. LOL! When they arrived, i invited them to eat... and there we were spending some time with each other... i needed to go home early because i was also in need of sleeping early for i expect to go at work today... but still, my fever never got out of my body... i woke up around 12:00am last night... as i thought... even though i was so enthusiastic to go at work, my body isn't so well so i decided to have more rest...

            I was scheduled for a check up this morning... so after that, we went to SM again... spend a little time with them, and went home first... Thanks to my uncle, i got home easily. LOL! Now here i am.. typing and expressing the thoughts i've gathered these past 2 and a half days of rest. I feel like my throat still hurts but my body got stronger now.

            And surely, i'll be working again tommorrow. Yayks... another great day to tackle. Now, this makes me wonder why i've named this post "Almost there...". uhmm well, yeah. i got it!

            I could still remember during those first few days i am recieving calls. I was sooooooo hard for me back then. Those 2 days of Rest Days weren't enough for me to rest my body as well as my mind... but now, though there were some worries left inside my mind, i can say that I'm almost there.. to the point when everything seemed so easy...

            Thanks to GOD.

            I've become stronger...

            I've become able to understand things more...

            I've become able to help those who need my assistance...

            and the last thing...

            I've become able to face this wall, which i think so tall at first...

            "ALMOST THERE".

                        HAIA
   Off to bed... ewww. why the font is red? eheheh

            It's another great day nanaman! hahaha. Good morning to myself and to everyone. Now, this is the day that i've been waiting for these past few days. You know what, I could somehow consider this day as a special one. Why? Simply because after our shift, we'll be hanging out with my classmates.

            It's been a loooooooooong time since we hanged up with each other. Like mallings, blah blah blah, this and that, this and that. HOWEVER! I'm not sure i'll still have this energy when we meet this afternoon. LOL! Then the next day, it's my dayoff nah. Yayks.

          Allright... now, wonderin' why the title is like that? Uhm. yeah, simply because i couldn't wrte the whole phrase at the title field because of it's length. Bwahahhaha! Now, actually the whole title was "What Keeps Me Love my Past". There you go. LOL. allright.

          I honestly believe in the saying "Don't dwell to much from your past for what is the more important is the present time". You mean to say, what???? yah! I do believe in that. However, i could not just forget my beautiful past.

         I'm gonna tell you why.

         This was me...

         Surrounded by funny yet good people. In a place where everything seems fine. In a place where my dreams have gathered... in a simple place where everything that i have right now started. During those days, when i can see that beautiful scenery under that wide blue sky... Whenever i see their faces and hear their laughs, i feel at ease. No matter how far we've been walking for, we never get tired because we were at each other's sides. The wind was warm... our hearts were warm as well. I could stii see how we fought all the blues and kept tryin' and tryin' for the better.

         Now, it seems that i've gone too far from that place. And that makes me think how sad it is to move into a new level of life. that's it. That's how i love my past... now, i'm just wishing that those days wouldn't be gone and fade away from our dearest memories...

            Hello there. Gotta bring out my thoughts once again. Haha. Allright, since i've been posting almost everyday, yeah, i thought that it's a pretty nice way to record all of the things i'm experiencing with this life i've recently had. You know what, one of the things that i used to do that i really really miss right now is "RELAXING". Yep. That's right. I know it's sounds "bleh" and funny. However, as of now, it's been awhile since i gave myself some time to relax.

            I'm not really sure if i could call it "relaxing" but, whenever i take my break, i just sit in a corner and there i was... thinking my calls even on the time of my break. Then time will run so fast and after a blink of an eye, there i am once again... working. That's how my work goes... everyday... on and on and on...

            Then after work... go straight home and SLEEP.

            It's just now that i've figured out the difference between REST and RELAX. Yeah, they're quite similar... however, "resting" is just for your physical aspects and "relaxing" on the other hand, involves even you're mental, emotional and spiritual entity. I never thought that i'll notice that thing as well... and since i've noticed such things, i can say that now i somewhat understand some hints about the meaning of being a grown-up. I'm just starting on this level so honestly speaking, i'm still adjusting myself.

            Now... everytime i look back to my past... my eyes go teary. Somewhat, sad but i need to be strong. That's what i keep on shouting on my mind. Now, i don't want to escape unless needed. I just want to fight... and continue what i've started until the last moment that i have with this.

           Now i'm getting emotional. HAHAHAHAH

           Anyway, i felt so good and satisfied when i'm going home yesterday. You know what? Yeah. I targeted 70 calls yesterday... and at the end of the day, i recieved more that what i've thought i'll have. LOL. Gotta work harder! Yeah! hehe.

            That's all for now... it's another great day again! ^__^

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            Another day had passed... another dream has been seen. and now, i'm awake once again to face another great day, helping, assisting and listening to all of the complains of our customers. LOL. Yeah... 5 days a week, that's what i'm doing. If there would be some words that may explain my feelings this time, they would be "Tired", "Traumatic" and "SLEEPY!". hahaha.

           However, despite of all these negative feelings i have towards my work, i just try to be strong in order for me to handle every single task that i was told to do. Sometimes, even if i have no idea about what they say, i tend to find solutions for that... and you know what? It's such a nice feeling when you've help them and hear them say "Thanks" or "Bless you".

            Now, i can say that i'm not planning to stay long at this kind of work. However, while i'm on it, i'll try to do my best and endure all the hardships that i have. GOD. I've been saying this thing for almost everyday now... because that's the way i cheer myself up. I really don't know what would happen as this day begins... and i really don't know yet what will i do before this day ends. That's why even with thess short messages that i write, i find myself comfortable starting each day that arrives..

             Yes.

             This is the road i chose...

            The road i've left behind were distorted and muddy.

            However, i'm not ashamed of them.

            Instead, i'm proud of these imperfection from the most

            bottom part of my heart.

            ~walking proud. ^_^

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