Yesterday was our school's Opening programme for the new School year. For me, it's my 8th and sadly the last Opening program that i've experienced for my whole life. The feeling was so strange to the point that i couldn't understand how i felt, if i was feeling happy or sad. Honestly. I couldn't figure out every emotions that i felt within me during those moments.

             At last, i said.

            This is the road i chose. And i couldn't even remember myself imagining these things that are happening right now. As the School Year starts, i prepared myself for another battle. Maybe not the last, but the most memorable battle that i will ever encounter before finally leaving the small and innocent world of immaturity.

            At last, i thought.

           I really wanted to know every single tactics to be learned in order to make this path easy and joyful. I want to remember the things, the words and every thought i've intercepted during these beautiful days of youthful memories. Surely, in the near great future, i will be missing these days... the days when i am still a Student.

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~the palms and the sky~

            The Photo above was taken yesterday, when I, annabel, joicel, and Paul went to SM Clark. OMG! We really enjoyed the time we've shared... I felt this kind of happiness once more. I enjoyed it! Trully! LOL...

            It's been a while... right? and you're the only one who stopped those sad and dull days of waiting. Thank you.... and Welcome to my life. Why can't i say "It's been awhile"? Its because i am inlove. LOL... i dunno why, how or where.... All i know is that you're the one that i always think of everytime right now.

            And i'm glad because of that.

            I like you.

            But.... surely... it will become a big challenge for me once again...

            But like those beautiful days of the past, i also want you to know me as far as i want to know you as well. I want to get clser and make beautiful memories with you. Please? Even just a smile. Even just a word... Even just a single touch from you hands. I want them to affect me everyday...

            We're far right now.

            And i have no idea on how to get closer to you.

            How?

            When?

            OMG...

            I really can't think of an solutions...

            But all i can say right now... is that

            I Like You. That's it! That's everything. (^_^)

            ( itago sa pangalang "FBI agent BLUE" hahahahah )

            Sometimes, i even ask myself if it will be better to forget everything and stop waiting for that thing. Sometimes, i just want to submerge in a middle of a crowd and be forgotten by everyone... or that someone. Days are dull. and i painfully dreamt for them to be colorful again. What will i do?

            In the middle of this buzzling grounds...  

            No matter how long i search for something, i couldn't find any strength to continue it. The sun, continuosly rises and sets over and over again on my side. The time, which passes and never stops even on a moment infront of me. The wind, which neverending blows around me. And the ME, that i see right now.

            Sometimes.

            I’m gonna tell you the truth 

            I chose an unforeseeably painful path 

            and you came to support me 

            You’re the only one I can call a friend

            Fake displays of strength and avarice have become meaningless 

            I’ve been in love with you since that day 

            When I’m free, with time to spare, there’s no life in being alone 

            I’m just a prisoner of love 

            Just a prisoner of love

            The wind... being so cold as it is, reminds me of something ~a beautiful and sad memory of a love that lingers even now which started sometime in the past.... I was awaken from a deep sleep and faced another premonition of Life... a life without you...

            It has been raining for a couple of days right now. And the sound of the rain on our rooftops makes it more painful than i ever expected.

            That moment, i suddenly realized that after so many times that i said it to myself, i am still searching for your face, wanting to hear your voice, and dreaming to hold you warm hands again.

            The scenery tells me of something hidden inside me.

            Rainy days have been a very big part of my life since then.

            And now, as they come once again this year, i suddenly thought about those beautiful days i've spent with you... Those lovely memorable and bittersweet memories i've made and those warm hugs, kisses and smile that you offered to me straighforawrdly. If i were to be back again to those days, i would love to face you and tell everything i want...

            How will it be?

            If only i had the courage to tell you.

            If only i had the strength to protect the treasure you gave.

            How are the things be going between the two of us?

            Tell me.

            The days when i have loved you were the brightest seasons.