I'm back! and i'm still alive and kicking! Our internet connection was disconnected for almost a week until last night. ehe... And i'm very happy because it's back... sabik na sabik akong magcheck ng Mails, and friendster, and facebook, and myspace, and etchetera! ahahah

            Alright! What happened to me these past week?

            hmmm... last Monday, we were scheduled to have a mid-term exam in Afro-Asian Literature... but our teacher didn't arrived due to some personal reasons. ehe... susyal diba? So, me and my classmates headed to "ANGELES!" and tambayan ng mga pok2x na tulad namen! weheheh... kinakarir na namen ang pagiging pokpok...! haaaahhahahah...

            Ayun. masaya naman ang outcome ng paglabas namen, though medyo nagkarroon nga ng konting Conflicts kase hintayan ever kame... you know that!? ahaha...ok... tapoz, knowing na next day, may exam kame, wala kaming pakialam... bsta masaya! ahahah... ansaya saya! (^_^)v

            The NExt Morning... ang napaka-Braing deafing and threatening day para sa'ken and sa mga klasmeyts koh! hmmmmmffft! ehe... we were actually scheduled to have an exam to one of our subjects that Tuesday... pero haaayz, pinalipat namen and nakagawa nanaman kame ng record... huhuhu... napagalitan kame't naSermon dun sa Super-Duper-Mega-Over SENSITIVE na teacher na un... eniweiz, we know na it's our fault talaga... ehehe

            Allright! wednesday.. is such a wet day! ehem....

            Nag-exam kame sa Dalawang Lit. kaka-DRAIN talaga sabi nga ni Totey! wahaha... pero ok lng... medyo boplaks ako sa Lit.Crit! huhu... pero... hmmmm! I believe! pasado naman akoh... wehehe... and yah! these past few days, Nag-eenjoy ako sa Praktis namen sa SAMANPAC. ewan ko noh... pero, dahil siguro i'll act na this time. (^_^)c

            Thursday! yeah! kamusta naman yon? Gumala nanaman ang mga pokpok sa angeles! ehehe... and yeah... medyo nakakapagod pero what really surprized me is that, naka-BONDING namen si Sir Lyndon! yeah!....a nd nalibre pa kame ng ice cream.. and... yeah, nag-share sya samen ng something sad... pero ... hmmm... Bsata sad... huhuhu... and yeah...

            Today is friday! birthday ni Sir Lyndon! and tonight will be our Acquaintance Party na medyo ikina-eexcite ko these past few days. (^_^) .....weeeeeeh!

            Guys! Un lng naman... medyo mahaba... pero sulit! noh? noh! ahahah

            Yeah guys! Thiz is it! ehehe... today is July 31, 2008. the day that i've been scared of. ehe. (joke lang). Somehow, excited ako... pero partly, Kinakabahan! Thesis Proposal defense ko nah. and i really can't believe that it's actually happening before my eyes. Nakoh!

            Yesterday... i sent txt messages to my friends:

            "Hi guys! Pag-pray nyoko tommorrow, kinakabahan ako grabeh!"

            And the replies we're tremendously numerous. ehehe.. As in! I'm so happy! knowing that there are really people out there who wishes good things for me, those who are supporting me, and giving me strength to make all the things i need to do properly.   

           haaaaaaaaays,.!

           I'm shaking... and i have no idea kung pano ko ba sisimulan ang discussion ng thesis ko mamaya.

            Eniweiz....

            Alam ko namang madami akong inspirations ngayon.

            ehehe

            Kaya no matter

what happens, i need to give my best!

            ehehe...

            Thanks everyone.! kaya ko toh! eheh.. go! go! go! (^_^)v

(road to heaven) ahah

            ...and they were anounced! haha.

            The days have gone so fast i think. Grabeh. Isang tulugan nalang, thesis proposal defense na pala namin!? akalain mo?. haha. honestly speaking, i thought, i'm ok with things happening. Sabi ko sa sarili koh, why should i be afraid? pero nakoh! hahaha... mas kinabahan yata ako lalo nung sinabi na ang schedule ko and ung mga panellists ko. ehemm... ndi ko nga maintindihan mga klasmeyts ko kase buti pa sila, mas guminhawa na daw ung pakiramdam nila nung nalaman na nila ung mga un. haaaaaaaaayz.

            Alright!

            Kamusta naman pala ako?

            uhmmm... eto, nababaliw. busy-busy-han sa Thesis and sa kung anik-anik pang activities sa school. But i'm happy. Happy? ahaha... why nman noh? eh kase nman, madami akong inspiration right now... anjan ang mga family members ko. hehe. anjan dn ang mga klasmeyts and friends ko na palagi akong ginugulo (joke!) ahaha and ofcourse, ang mga "CRUSHES" kong naglipana sa paligid! ehehe

            Kaya siguro andami dami kong crush, kase gusto ko dn dumami ang mga inspirations ko noh? ahaha. eniweiz., yun nga... how sad naman, kase ung pinaka-crush ko ngaun,... feeling ko, malabo kaming maging close. hmmmmft. ala kaseng bridge... kaya hanggang tingin nalang siguro ako.. ahahah... (T_T)

            And yah!

           I'm glad na close na ulet kame. so far, may connection nanaman between the two of us.... who? ??? eheh... secret... joke! ahaha... si Jordz. ahuhu. kamusta naman diba? last year, ganitong month and season den, nangyari ang lahat. ahaha... and natapos dn. pero ehem... ok na ok na saken un ngayon eh... alam ko naman kse ung saying nah  "Everything happens for a reason". db?

            Ahah... so un lng naman.

           Grabeh! i'll need to prepare myself for tommorrrow's battle.!

           GamBatte! (^_^)

           Jia yoU! (^_^)

            Fightting! (^_^)v

            It's been awhile since we've met. And honestly speaking, i am so happy 'bout that moment when we held each hands once again. Even just for a split seconds of time. I just can't understand myself. I was hurt. I've learned lessons. But the fact that i've depending on myself to be happy, the more i search for someone to hold me.

            If i am to be back on those days...

            I want to show him all i ever wanted to show. I want to say him all i ever wanted to say. I want to shine. To spread my wings in freedon infront of that person. I want to change everything. To correct everything. To protect that long-gone love tighter,  and braver than i ever did.

            Same scenery as before, that person suddenly appeard in front of me. Trying to smile, with that particular sense of look. I just wanted to burst and fly away with the dust in the wind. Those warm hands, the hands that i've been wanting to hold again seemed to be touching me as well.

            I wanted everything to stop for a moment.

            But it was so sudden.

            And i've been already aware of this painful reality.

            We're back with our own lives. And no matter how painful i look for more angels to understand, i can now see the light. The chance to be brave, to find myself, to let his hands be free from mine.

            But still, I'm always here...

            To hold those warm hands tightly whenever it needs someone to hang on.