WARNING: This might be the longest po that you'll ever read. LOL. wag naman sana.

            Yesterday, thank god! Our internet connection is back... but unfortunately, from a new provider. I've been out from the W.w.W. for about a month since the last time i posted my last post.... And yah! It's been a "long, sad, happy and everything" month. The wind becam cold right now and today, its exactly 8 days before christmas. Wew! So excited. Ok. Ok. Ok. So what happened this whole month of disconnection? Well, i'll tell them one by one...

            November 17, My mom went home from Japan! Yey... i'm so happy and thankful to see her again after several months of being away. Besides, i missed her a lot... madami akong nabili nung andito sya! haha.... We even went to Laguna to visit her "kumare" and yayks! Ang-Kyut nung baby! ahe.. (^__^)

            November  19, At last, my lola went home as well from the hospital... ehe... and i'm glad to see her recovering and susyal! She's dandy fine nah right now...

            November 29, Alright.... my mom went back to Japan... and i nearly cried at the airport. Eheh... I realized nah i really missed her and ofcourse my family and the place where we love on that faraway "land of the rising sun"

            December 7, the saddest and most shocking news i heard so far... During the heights of gladness and rejoices of our country men because of that boxer's victory, i went thoughtless... blank... sad... and literally, shocked and speechles when i heard the news... One of the most prominent, influential, kind, and handsome guys i've known in the Entertainment industry passed away... Marky Cielo (May 12, 1988 - December 7, 2008) will always be remembered by his fans, friends, and family. It's totaly unexpected...

          Shrinked and devastated by active mood for how many days... Haaaaaaaaay.  Not everybody know how much i became sad because of that news. The bad thing is i never got to visit his wake. And its too late now. Haaayz... Basta yun! Nakaka-sad talaga anoh?

            December 8, "Hiraya Teatro" staged a play entitled "Tatlo, Buo / New Yorker in Tondo" at our school and yayks! The writer and the director of the play is a former SAMANPAC member too! Actually... i enjoyed the play -a lot! But i enjoyed it most when Mr. Chaps (the writer and director) said "Proud ako dahil dito ako unang umarte!" and yayks! Hahaha! Special Mention and 2nd Family koh... because of that, my eyes went teary... hihihi.. nakakahiya mang sabihin pero i was really touched because of that... haaaayz.. someday, sana masabi ko din yon anoh!? ahe.

            And lastly, December 16, the Supreme Student Council organized the biggest (i think? ehe) even of the year... i was tasked to do the movie presentations kaya for several days, naging busy den ako... But i'm not complaining at all noh. Besides, the SSC president is a good friend of mine and its for my beloved school naman.. ehe... i made a performance last night pala.. ehehe.. and here's a picture of me! 

            Oh diba!? hahaha! Bonggang Bongga! I just don't know if meron palang kumuha ng vid hbang kumakanta ako! ehe... eniweiz, i enjoyed the night... Madaming bagay ang narealized ko afterwards... na dapat ko talagang i-enjoy ito because probably, its the last disco that i'll attend for the rest of my whole College Life (yun ay kung di ako mag-aaral ulet!) ehehe... So yan guys! Malapit na akong matapos sa module koh! ehehe.. yun lang naman ang nangyari! Buti nalang hindi nangyari ang nsa "Warning" eheh... till next time guys! Share ko nalang ulet mga happennings... and sana, wag nah mawala internet namen kase andami kong namimiss... ehehe...

            Kuya nHoy! Miss u... sna magkita ulet taU someday. R.I.P.

            Well, i'm really amazed by things such as Horoscopes. And i admit, i'm a believer. LOL. But yeah, i'm pretty much sure that it's not actually bad to believe on things like that. Somehow, these things of such could be my only source of relief about worrying on things that happen or might happen to me during these days. This morning, as i logged in at my Friendster Account, i automatically viewed my daily horoscope... and it says like this...           

            "Right now you might feel like there's a battle going on between your high-spirited half and your quiet half -- you don't know if you want to curl up in a ball and be alone, or break out and go party with friends. This is perfectly normal from time to time, so don't worry too much about it. Just give yourself time to work these combative feelings out, and don't expect yourself to come to a certain conclusion anytime soon. Try to be comfortable with it, because it's stimulating new ideas."

            Without a single word, im really sure that this is how i feel right now. I'm trapped within this kind of despair with too much things to think. Thank God, recently i've been addicted to this Anime (Kyo Kara Maoh) thats why somehow, i find a bit of happiness through this sort of... Entertainment, i mean. LOL

           After a sort-of a-long and boring Semestral Break, ofcourse the classes had already begun. Too bad, we only have 4 subjects for our last semester. Perhaps, all my classmates are happy about this, but for me, this is a disaster (no further questions please. LOL).

           Then, i fell inlove. (^__^) But sadly, it also faded away as fast as the storm which recently visited our islands. LOL... i dunno why. i dunno how. But that is how i felt after we met for awhile while wandering around a mall in a city near my hometown. Oh my. Its not that i'm dissapointed. But i felt like i don't want to sacrifice our longlived friendship over my superficial selfish feelings. That's LIFE and i thought that i should give up and find a new one (hopefully).

          Recently, i've been so pissed off by how my grandma act. After leaving the hospital and going back home, all of us in this house gave her all the care and attention she needs. But despite all of our efforts, i can see that she's not fighting. The more we care, the more she acts more sickly. I don't know why. Ofcourse, we're worried about her condition... that's why we need to see her getting better. But sadly speaking, she was sent to hospital once again yesterday. And hopefully, she'll be blessed by God's guidance and protection... And yeah, i'm planning of for a visit today or tommorow.

           COMBATIVE

           That's what my daily horoscope say. And yeah, that's how i really feel right now. Despite all these combative feelings that i experience recently, i want to remain calm, happy and positive.

            Surely, after all of these... I'll be stronger.

            At a corner, my friends and I were standing... and unexpectedly, someone appeared before me. Of all people i'm expecting to see, that person surprized me alot. LOL! Akalain mo... Last night, i couldn't even sleep because of that person. Hahahaha... But yeah... We met, talked and walked together for a while... and yey! I recieved this piece of gift...

            Yey! How cute. LOL... anyway, i don't really have an idea about how to call this kind of bracelet but its way toooooooooooo different from that "Friendship Bracelet" (ooops! I gave it as an exchange to this...) but yeah... ofcourse... i'll surelly treasure it... (^__^)

            It's very heartwarming to know that i recieved an unexpected gift from that unexpected person who appeared on that unexpected moment. Haha.. Ciao

            How can i recall that piece of moment in my memory? It was as if i can only taste the sadness that has been longing since that day when i felt this emotion. It was as if i can only see what shows ahead of me.

            It was... as if i have felt it before.

            The wind starts to become cold right now. The sun hides behind those thick clouds fluttering above me. You were there... and from a distant view, i can see you. Expectedly, my chest trembled... My happiness overflowed...

            "Unbelievable". i thought.

            I never dreamt of myself to like someone like that you. The one who seemed to be kind. The one who stayed me when i a thoughtless. The one, i never thought to have beside me during those days of my innocence.

            Can we still see that beautiful sky once again?

            As it is... i am expected to feel this kind of sadness. I want to go closer. But i can't. How much strength do i need just to tell that this is the most important thing in my life right now? How much time is left for me to spend more moments with you?

            I couldn't ever imagine my own answer for those questions. That moment ~ when you're standing by a distant view... i want to spread my arms to feel how close we really are.

            I really don't know where this feeling will go or how farther will it live on. But as early as now... i can only say this thing... Maybe, the best way to make you happy... is just to keep you Out of Me...

            No matter how painful it will be...