Once again, i gazed above that clear blue sky and felt the ever changing wind that blows around me. I say "i guess, i deserve what happened." I couldn't believe it at all that i'll be coming back to that place and that fact alone, makes it harder for me to sleep because honestly speaking, i am getting excited to go back. I really don't know how to put it but, i guess this time, i'll see to it that i'll be better that the "me" back then.

            Too much has happened and enough has been changed. Now, i could say from the bottom of my heart that i really deserve this new oportunity to try this road once again. I deserve this chance to correct all of the mistakes i've done before, and pull the best out of me in this new track that i'll run in the coming days.

            What makes me sad afterall?

            Somehow, it's painful for me to take this path again... because i know it to myself that i'll miss those friends that i had along the way during those hard and unseemingly beautiful days of my life. Saddening, that i'll go ahead of them... ahead of those people i had during those days when i couldn't think of any path to take, those people who didn't left me... those who stood beside me, facing those painful days together. Thank you guys, and i'll miss you so much for we might not be able to hang out often in the near future, unlike those days...

            Last night, i felt so relieved when i saw the offer letter on my mail box. Without hesitation, i downloaded the file and did the instructions that the woman i've talked to the other night told me to do.

            "I Accept."

            That what i've clicked as a cue that i'm ready for a new battle. Honestly speaking, i'm not really aiming for something great but surely, i'll aim for the best. I know their quite similar however, i treat "BEST" and "GREAT" different, and there's a story behind that. :)

             Well, as of now, i'm still waiting for another call. A call that would decide if i'll stay with my previous project or i'll be assigned into another one. But actually, i am hoping to stay with my previous one... i don't really know why but that's what i want it to be... Anyways, i'm really glad because i'm about to live that kind of life once again, be it painful or not, be it a tear or smile, i want to be happy and i want to give my best in every single thing i'll do. This time, i'll grab it! Yeah! I'm sure.

            Here i am... and as of this moment, i am Gettin' there :)